Hi all,
May was a good month to trade. Last 4 months have been very testing in many aspects. I had to deal with situations which i have not dealt so far.
It all started after Feb ending. Feb was my first loss month and i was in a DD of around 2l. I thought that i should go full model in march as the tested DD is 10l and i am already under 2l. So the risk was 8l. MOreover, if i loose this 8l then also i would loose 5.6l in reality as 2.4l was going to go in taxes after march. Hence, I thought going full with a risk of 5.6l was a good option.
March was a bad month, actually very bad. Nothing seemed to go right.Also, trading a full portfolio was very taxing on me. I was emotionally drenched. Around 21st march after a 7 day loosing streak i thought i cant handle it anymore and decided to again go half positions henceforth. I was under a loss of around 6.5l at that time. Why i went on to trade half positions and what was the logic behind it, i have already explained earlier.
April was again a negative month and the DD increased to 7.5l. I ran many studies on the viability of the strategies and everything seemed ok. I held on tightly.
Finally may gave some solace. Recovery has started, about 50% done.
Now looking back:
1) If i had traded the half position model throughout i would have been in profit.
2) If i had traded the full position model throughout from march start, i would have been in profit.
Reality is i am under a DD still. So, what was the fault? Going full model (no, i had reasons for that). Going half positons (no, i had reasons for that too). I have thought about it alot and found that my scaling up criteria was flawed on many levels. I should have scaled up like add 5 more add 5 more...I should not have doubled my portfolio overnight.
This was an important learning.
There were some other unfortunate incidents that happened against me during this period. I was out for a week, and was trading remotely. After a week when i reached home and analysed the trades, i found that i GFDL had been stuck in 10-12 of my symbols and they didnt give any trades. Upon correcting i found they would have given 2l in profits. These woes added to my misery.
Currently i am trading 15 stocks only and will try to slowly scale up. Recovering fully might take another 2 months, but its ok.
May month stats.
All the best for June to all.
MT